My December to Remember: Day Twenty-Six
News: Trump puts Chinese workers at Panama Canal on notice, makes a pitch to Canadian citizens for lower taxes should they become the 51st state (lol), makes the same offer to Greenland (lol x2), will withdraw from the WHO on day one, and is putting his “Diet Coke button” back in the Oval Office (lol the third).
My boyfriend refers to himself as “The Cruise Director” sometimes. He’s a man who doesn’t like to waste his time. When we go out on our weekend adventures, he always has a good timeframe on when we should leave so we can get the best parking spot and beat the inevitable tourist rush. Our days start early and end early, and I couldn’t be happier with this timetable. Because being in it and around it is giving me a sense of timing I didn’t think possible, even though my livelihood centers around keeping time on air.
A lot of the time when I get home, I take a nice long couch nap. It’s freeing not having to set an alarm for myself, and I can just sleep and sleep until I’m no longer tired. I explain to people who ask about my overnight shift how when I wake up, it’s like I’ve got a second day to do all the things I need. That’s how I’ve been treating it lately, as for a while there it felt like I was getting nothing accomplished in the leadup to bedtime. But a schedule never has to be as scary as I’m making it, especially when I can do things in a much timelier fashion than I thought.
Like tonight for example. Boyfriend is coming into the city tomorrow to spend the weekend with me, and my apartment is mess. I have clothes on the floor from the last time I spent the weekend at his house. There’s laundry that needs to go in the hamper, garbage needing to be taken out, things in the fridge that can be pitched, and I need to wipe down all the counters and sinks. And for the first time, this isn’t overwhelming me. Because I just texted my boyfriend to let him know my schedule, including the 25-minute workout I have on tap, while he told me his plans for the rest of the night too. I love being able to “tell time” with him, so to speak, because not only am I getting done what I need to, I have an extra set of hands to hold me accountable as well.
Nothing seems beyond my grasp right now. It’ll all get done when it’s supposed to. And when I find I have no more time to do things, I simply put it down for the night and find time the next day. It’s very important to tell yourself, “I’ve done all I can tonight, and I can do no more.” Overworking one’s self is certainly not good. Doing the same when you don’t have the time to do it is even worse.
